insecurities Archives

I Have Gold In My Mouth

I’ve got a vague memory I can’t exactly figure out. When I was a little boy, I remember having what you could call a 3rd front tooth awkwardly wedging itself between the typical 2 front ones. I think it was like a baby tooth or something to that effect that led a confused, bullied life.… Continue reading I Have Gold In My Mouth

Psychological Knots: Untangling the Harrowing Web of My Past

Often, I post things on Facebook that get me into trouble. Not any sort of tangible trouble, but they generate misinterpreted concern and worry. Not that I lack gratitude that people out there care about my well-being, but nobody wants people to think you’re not alright when you’re perfectly well (or doing great). In fact,… Continue reading Psychological Knots: Untangling the Harrowing Web of My Past

The Success Tree

I was rethinking how I see success and failure. I’ve been learning that I’ve been more afraid of succeeding than I ever have been of failing. I was thinking maybe we can look at failure like a seed. We don’t know what kind of seed it is, but all we have to do to keep… Continue reading The Success Tree

The Two Most Important Things I Did to Breakout of Anxiety and Depression

I think that in the past year I became, what I’d define to be, a man. Not to say that before I was a boy, but I was in some sort of flux. I struggled a lot over the past several years with individuality and identity. I still vividly remember the gray feelings, the dreariness, and… Continue reading The Two Most Important Things I Did to Breakout of Anxiety and Depression

Mind’s Eye Blindness

I spent at least an hour the other night just watching myself. I fired up the camera on my computer and just took a good look trying to absorb everything, partly because I’m too broke to afford a mirror. I came to a couple conclusions lately. First, I’m still not fully recovered from my last… Continue reading Mind’s Eye Blindness

Smiling Practice

This morning, I made it my personal goal to hold a good, genuine smile during my drive to and from work. I did OK on the first leg, and we’ll see how the second leg goes, but besides being a mood augmenter, the personal challenge is eye-opening to a lot of things.

The thing about smiling is that it seeps into your mood. If you’re smiling, and by that I mean replicating a genuine looking smile, then eventually the line will cross from just forcing that smile to actually smiling, and because pleasantness and happy emotions are so strongly bonded with that facial expression, that smile gets you feeling better; feeling good.

The Pristine and The Ugly

I’ve grown up so much in the past couple years. Especially in the past 6-12 months. A lot of times, it is easy to assume — time has passed, I must have matured some more! Check yo’ face, cause often times that might be the only way you’re maturing. I am talking about growth that I can visibly, circumstantially see.

I’ve been keeping a personal blog since I was at least 16 or 17, and it has been one of the most instrumental pieces in my personal growth and discovery as an individual. When I think about it, it is a measuring stick– a qualitative, wordy measuring stick. I don’t know how anyone could live without one? Not necessarily a blog, but a means to personally measure where they are in life like marking our height on the wall over the years.

I am paranoid of stagnation.