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Like a stationary object in the rearview

The last few weeks has been a continuous mind trick. It feels like exhaustion, but I get home in the evenings and find familiarity missing. Objects of my house seem to keep slipping away, as if they were never there. That picture frame to the left of the front door, a couple of the footstools… Continue reading Like a stationary object in the rearview

Lost Arts

If you have known me long enough, or read this a few times, you probably have a basic idea of some of the phases I’ve been through in the last few years of my life. One of the dominant themes of the past 2 and a half was intense isolation, and the loss of myself.… Continue reading Lost Arts

I need to introspector gadget.

I tried to write tonight. Then I accidentally refreshed the browser 3 paragraphs in. I am exhausted, and can’t spare more energy to start over, or try to write anything else. What a disappointment. I’ll tell you something scary, though. When you think you are encountering yourself. You meet someone, and you see reflections of… Continue reading I need to introspector gadget.

I’m Tired..

I haven’t written a single thing in the vicinity of a month. Most of what I’ve wanted to write has been excessively positive. I feel more like myself than I have in years, seriously, years. Plural. My confidence in all things is starting to beam, and I enjoy everyday. But then I have a today.… Continue reading I’m Tired..

Let’s Clear Some Things Up + Thoughts on Anger

Looks like I need to clear some things up. The thing is, I feel like no matter what I say, there will be a segment of people (likely the direct objects) who just won’t believe me. I can’t let that matter, though. Let me start with a few broad things. Anger is an mal-intented stranger.… Continue reading Let’s Clear Some Things Up + Thoughts on Anger

Atonement: this was either spot on, or the biggest pile of BS I’ve ever presented

But it was relevant to myself, because this is the never ending path I am finding myself on, and the biggest current theme in my life right now: The path to atonement, the “redemption story” — it is something I’ve thought a lot about (it is one of my favorite character arcs), and I don’t… Continue reading Atonement: this was either spot on, or the biggest pile of BS I’ve ever presented

More Honesty Minute

Tomorrow I start my life over– again. Or so it feels. I did this once already within the last year, when I went back to school and started working at Forrest Hills. Tomorrow, I reboot, again, and that is kind of terrifying me at the moment. It isn’t so much nerves, it is the lack… Continue reading More Honesty Minute